A God that holds
Lord, thank you for being a God that holds
when I am sad or down
you are there to hold me
when I worry or get anxious
you it’s your perfect peace that holds me
when I want to lash out or
let condemnation get too close to my heart
you grab my heart and soul and hold me
because Lord it is in these moments of your hold
that the weight of your glory stops me in my tracks
as your hold
allows me to behold
your love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness,
faithfulness, gentleness and self control
the tools of your righteousness are what hold me still
just long enough where your presence and Holy Spirit
helps me shed another layer
sanctifies me a little further
it is as if a life pursuing you is constantly letting go
letting you do the work
to place my complete trust in you
But Lord, I confess sometimes I grab
and reach for what is not for me
I start something or take action without your blessing
I act on emotion or past feelings instead of making
the choice
to wait for your quiet voice
but still Lord, still Lord
you always hold me until I hear
just a different kind of hold
as at times I don’t know it but
I need you to be a God who withholds
because it is in these moments
when I see why might withhold something from me
What I think I want might not be for me or
maybe I am just not ready for it
I praise you Lord and thank for when you withhold
when I don’t know any better
when I might let an unprocessed past pain
get the best of me
but you always a plan
and always have the best for me
because it is in the moments of when you withhold
that I have a chance to fix my eyes back to you
to hold my attention on your character
to just slow down
and be still enough
to behold the beauty
and glory of your presence
to rest into your loving arms
realizing as you said in Isiah “see I am doing a new thing,
Now it springs up, do you perceive it?”
Do you perceive it?
I just want to repeat that to myself over and over
Oh Lord, I just want to be still long enough to
perceive it
and then see it
to see what you are doing
to live with radical obedience
to be a man who sought you with my whole heart
my whole heart Lord
my whole heart Lord
but I know I can’t do that unless
I let you do what you do best
to just being the most loving, kind and generous God
who in every moment holds
especially when fear, anxiousness or confusion
might creep in
you always stand firm and look me in the eye
as to say…those feelings are not me
as I am in the prince of peace
and here to put you at ease
so just sit back and behold me
for I will
always always always
be a God who
holds thee
